My name is Alexandra, but I go by Alex. I live on the mainline, and yes, it should be a Real Housewives installment. But I’m not like that, and neither is my family. My family’s crazy and foreign (Irish and Lebanese, to be exact). I drive a Jeep and listen to music with all my windows down. I’m a Leo, and I think I could actually be a lion (aside from the fact that I have a crazy mane). I’m almost 19, but I’m 5 in my mind and heart. I wish I could be a kid and live in Harry Potter and other books that make my heart swirl. Brown hair, brown eyes, love make up, 7 piercings (only ears), one tattoo (white dove on my wrist), size 10.5 shoe, I say dude too much, and I would use the following 6 words to describe myself: observant, internal, happy, sad, confused, and out of my own control.

Favorites: 4, X, Thursday, July, 4th of July, Purple/Green, chocolate, water, Sour Patch Kids, strawberries, broccoli, Free People/Urban Outfitters, Louboutins, Urban Decay, Jeep, Cosmo, The Great Gatsby, Harry Potter, Tresor, Polar Bear, Phillies, Drawing, Sleep, Weezy/Eminem/Nicki/etc.

that’s enough for now.

7:45 pm  •  15 July 2011

we’re pretty!

7:27 pm  •  15 July 2011

1. Had a beer.
2. Been drunk.
3. Touched a real gun. 
4. Done drugs. 
5. Wrote on a bathroom stall.
6. Read a George Orwell book.
7. Had sex.
8. Got into a fist fight.
9. Used Twitter.
10. Listened to Lady Gaga.
11. Been in a car accident.
12. Gotten suspended.
13. Gotten expelled.
14. Got a computer virus.
15. Had a hand-written diary.
16. Been allergic to something.
17. Had a dog.
18. Had a cat.
19. Been pregnant.
22. Camped out.
23. Swam in the Ocean.
24. Wore a bikini.
25. Meet someone online in person.
26. Made a survey.
27. Used ICQ.
28. Failed a class for the year.
29. Repeated a grade.
30. Went to summer school.
31. Got the high honor roll.
32. Got the regular honor roll (A’s and B’s).
33. Learned to speak another language.
34. Read an entire book.
35. Recorded my own music.
36. Had an xBox.
37. Listened to Rammstein.
38. Wore fishnets.
39. Bought skinny jeans.
40. Been in love.
41. Hated someone.
42. Been cheated on.
43. Cheated on someone.
45. Did something sexual with someone of the same sex. 
46. Practiced Christianity.
47. Worn makeup.
48. Had a cavity.
49. Had surgery.
50. Had my license.
51. Been to college. 
52. Graduated high school. 
53. Attempted suicide.
54. Worn colored contacts.
55. Painted my nails black.
56. Broken someone’s heart. 
57. Had my heart broken.
58. Cried for an hour straight.
59. Lost something very valuable.
61. Got separated from my parents as a kid.
62. Broken a bone.
63. Gotten stung by a bee.
64. Eaten something bad/expired. 
65. Threw up from being so drunk.
66. Had to put a pet to sleep.
67. Participated in a swinger’s party.
68. Owned an iPod.
69. Owned an iPhone.
70. Fell for a best friend.
71. Stole a friend’s significant other.
 73. Went away from home for more than a week.
74. Moved out.
75. Ran away.
76. Teased my brother/sister.
77. Gotten into a fist fight. 
78. Been to the hospital.
79. Had food poisoning.
80. Had a job.
81. Been fired.

82. Lied to a friend.
83. Lied to a family member.
84. Lied to a significant other.
85. Posted a video on YouTube.
86. Started a rumor about someone.
87. Deliberately failed a test.
88. Dropped out of school.
89. Fallen down the stairs.
90. Been skinny dipping.
91. Counted to a million.
92. Counted to a thousand.
93. Ate deer meat.
94. Ate duck meat. 
95. Had fast food.
96. Been to church.
97. Been to a synagogue.
98. Been married.
99. Had a divorce.
100. Broken a window.

9:12 pm  •  4 April 2011

10. your celeb crush.

rupert grint, he’s perfect.

11. something you hate.

SPIDERS. i will not get a picture of it.

12. a picture of something you love.

kairos.

2:42 pm  •  30 January 2011

7. a picture of your most treasured possession.

my class ring.

8. a picture that makes you laugh.

maggie put this on my wall today. I die.

9. a place you have been.

Lebanon. I’m in love.

1:16 am  •  29 January 2011

4. a habit you wish you didn’t have.

honestly though, I do. it’s probably my greatest downfall.

5. a picture of your favorite memory.

senior week. this day was the best day i can remember in a long time. 

6. a picture of a person you want to trade places with for a day.

HOW HOT IS SHE?! i can’t deal. she’s perfect, I’d be her all day every day.

1:07 pm  •  26 January 2011

1. A picture of you with 10 facts about yourself.

I love birds. I always try to please people, and I almost always inconvenience myself. I pretty much hate college. Most of my favorite things are found in the sky (birds, clouds, stars, the moon). Chia pets scare the bejesus out of me. I wish I was 10000% passionate about something. I love Weezy (like actually would marry him right now.) I have the most amazing friends, I really do. I miss being a child and having everything be simple. I want to live in at least 5 or 6 different places (NYC, LA, Miami, Paris, London, and Lebanon.)

2. A picture with someone you have been closest to the longest.

this betch is some cRaZY shet, but I fucking love her for it.

3. A picture of you and your friends.

there are some key people missing, but here are my main betches.

11:59 pm  •  24 January 2011

I am: strong, happy, confused, a bitch, a person who puts others before herself, non-judgemental, afraid of the future and change.

I used to be: carefree, silly, a little kid forever, a typical child.

I changed because: my parents got divorced, I was forced into being an adult much faster than I should have, I had to protect others, I developed a bitterness to the world. 

7:50 pm  •  19 December 2010

I got my wisdom teeth out today. However, last night I hung out with by best friends of 8 years. We had the best time, laughed, cried, like old times. John visited me today, brought me mac and cheese, and I skyped with Cathy Lee, Ari, and Brenna, and Catie is visiting me later. I’d say this isn’t my ideal last day on earth, but seeing some good people would have made it worth it. : )

9:12 pm  •  18 December 2010

tumblrbot asked: WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE INANIMATE OBJECT?

christmas trees.

3:17 pm  •  12 December 2010

this is my winter song, December never felt so wrong.

we woke up unusually early that day. we made our trek across the street to our house for the week. sleepy eyed, yet excited, we claimed our rooms and whipped out the alcohol. it was our first official day in our senior week house. mimosa’s to start, along with piecing the previous night together. we didn’t know that this would become our morning routine. shots at ten. wine bag at 12. drunk by 12. jumping in and out of the bay, tanning, slapping the wine bag again, easy mac and bagel bites, more shots, ghanja. sometime around three, i stumbled into the shower (fell asleep for a little in there), and found my sloppy ass some clothes and the nearest bed. 5 hours later, i awoke spooning with my best friend to some people yelling outside our door. i walked outside, slapped the boy who was yelling across the face, and went upstairs. everyone and their mother was there practically. oh well, shots it is. 

the healthy combination of best friends, alcohol, bud, and summer is all i need in my life.

10:22 pm  •  11 December 2010

I can’t help but think one of my best friends is changing to someone else. We’re still best friends, but she has done a complete 180 in college. Everything she used to scold us for (drugs, alcohol, sex), she has embraced with seemingly open arms now. And with no apologies or explanations, either. I don’t know, it’s really bothering me. She’s still acting like such a know-it-all, too. And yet, she goes out drinking every weekend, shotguns weed, fucks a guy she just met, and acts like nothing’s changed? I love her so much, but I can’t help but feel a little annoyed with this sudden change and no “I’m sorry I was an asshole to you about this stuff before,” or “I realize I was wrong.”

10:13 pm  •  11 December 2010